A Lil Something

Hey just stop, close your eyes for a second
Think about your family and friends and just listen
To what your heart says, think about all the days and all the different ways,
In which they made you happy and put a smile on your face always,
I know that you will appreciate, look deep down set aside all that hate
Construct a shade over your heart with something called love,
You know its beautiful equivalent to the grace of a dove,
Stop crying girl, its not the end of the world,
But you can't avoid it sometimes cuz life is filled with twists and twirls
When it gets hard, just look deep inside your heart,
Mum and dad are there for you always be beside
Its your new year's resolution isn,t it?
To stop crying? I hope you can see the true bright light shining :)

Its Been Too Long....

U know what i feel absolutely terrible with eash passing minute of each and every day...for me it feels like time has stopped...permanently in a time of mental and emotional pain. No matter how hard i try to focus on the positives...i cant seem to shake off the feeling of hopelessness...

God help me...another 17 months left in the shithole....i feel that there's not enough oxygen around me...im suffocating...my work and environment has made me a less fun person...my world has turned dark on me..its like an eclipse tats gonna last for eternity...the only way for me to keep the moon from blocking the sun is to build a spacecraft-thingy or watever to get me up there and manually push it away back where it belongs...i know it sounds crazy...all i need is time cuz in 17 months time..the light is gonna ignite a dying flame under my heart...life as i know it will return.but until tat enriching..cant-wait-for-it moment....i gotta wait patiently under the slums of darkness and without me being detected by my enemies i have to build that spacecraft...

What the hell am i talking about...

I'm like a crewman who lost his captain....

I lost my grandmother...i lost someone who truly guided me through stormy seas and treachrous times....I felt so weak when i lost her...she was an amazing woman even at her age she was so happy and so fit...that she could take part in a trialothon...oh man..im like a crewman who lost his captain...she truly had such a great impact and influence on me she taught me how to pray, how to stay strong in times of turmoil and confusion...and now she is gone..

Its so difficult for me to accept that she's been here with me through all these years and now she's gone...a job well done on earth thats the best way i can describe her deeds...now she is in heaven ready to serve the lord...and although she is not here anymore...i know she is praying for me and everyone of us...even if she doesnt know you....thats the kind of faith she had

That was what she was trying to teach me..i understand now...that this is truly where my journey begins..grandma..or amachi as i would call her..."I wont let u down"

I love you..

I hate my job!!! ah!!!!!

I have been quite unhappy for the past few days...but i didnt really know why! hahahahaha....it was not until wednesday that i realised what made me unhappy was actaully my job!

I have absoulutely no life at the moment....going to work every other 2 days...working in an underground facility thts filled wit unbearable human stench....most of the guys locked up actually stay there for as long as up to 6 weeks...and they absoulutely stink!!!....wokring in humid conditions..i think i would be better off standing under the sun naked! wat makes me sick is havin to see the same accused almost everyday i go to work..and the same all white and green painted walls..sometimes i feel like as if im the one locked up 2!

As much as i love my squadmates back in HTA...i feel as if im no different than the people locked up in the facility im working in..its like NS is a 2 year jail term and if u try to escape u get charged and get a few more years in ur jail term...(AWOL)

Same consequences for the guys locked up isnt it??

Calling all MJ fans.....

I have a few questions for all MJ fans...

Don't get me wrong..its not like i dont like MJ..but not one of those die hard fans of MJ...but i wanna get ur opinions on what makes him so popular??

1.) Why is MJ so popular?
2.) Is known best for his singing or dancing?
3.) Do u think he would have been less popular if he hadnt had the surgery tat made him white?

Juz curious..tats all! :)

I need ur help people!!

I believe that rap can flow wit music of any genre...but of course all of those fusions wouldnt sound so good...but some do..do u have any idea what would? i mean have u ever wondered, hmm...if there was a rap on this piece of music..it would be great!...

Well if u have any ideas pls do tell me...cuz i wanna attract more and more people who are fans of different music to start listening to rap....

If u have anything pls share...

Lord teach me to pray....

A letter to god...

Lord pls forgive me for my selfishness....i realise that i pray to you only when i have a problem or in a dillema..i ask for faith, strength and wisdom...but on the good days that i had...i never prayed..i never thanked you for the great day u have given me....

Lord pls teach me to pray....pls help me to serve the church as a faithful christian brother to the people and a faithful son of yours....

Lord pls show me the way...and help me stay strong!

Johnson