Its Been Too Long....

U know what i feel absolutely terrible with eash passing minute of each and every day...for me it feels like time has stopped...permanently in a time of mental and emotional pain. No matter how hard i try to focus on the positives...i cant seem to shake off the feeling of hopelessness...

God help me...another 17 months left in the shithole....i feel that there's not enough oxygen around me...im suffocating...my work and environment has made me a less fun person...my world has turned dark on me..its like an eclipse tats gonna last for eternity...the only way for me to keep the moon from blocking the sun is to build a spacecraft-thingy or watever to get me up there and manually push it away back where it belongs...i know it sounds crazy...all i need is time cuz in 17 months time..the light is gonna ignite a dying flame under my heart...life as i know it will return.but until tat enriching..cant-wait-for-it moment....i gotta wait patiently under the slums of darkness and without me being detected by my enemies i have to build that spacecraft...

What the hell am i talking about...